What's Meant to Be
I guess that this is just the irony of life, the least expected always happens, while the most anticipated never happens the way you want it to.
I have tried giving excuses for everything that has been happening but I realized, the fact is that she will never come back. I have really exhausted all my efforts and my energy to try to get someone back who wasn't meant to be mine in the first place.
I keep on pondering to myself, what if this happens, what if that happens, I held on to the tiny glimmer of hope for the past month that she will turn back some day and somehow the 'right time' will be any time soon, but little did I realize, that 'right time' was never going to come, at least, I didn't see it coming my way, which makes it bad enough.
I don't know if whatever she said to me came from the bottom of her heart, but after this whole spade of events, I learnt not to trust people's words that easily, especially the girl I'm going crazy over.
When I saw the two of them holding hands in town, my heart was at my mouth and it stopped beating for a moment. But that was probably wake up call for me, a call for me to move on from the person that stayed in my heart for so long.
Indefinitely, to put a stop to these thoughts in my mind : But.. I liked her for so long, But.. she makes me feel so happy blah blah blah.
Guess all these may just be nonsense to her, so I guess I have to let all these pass me by too.
That's all for now I guess.
